Filling the void

As I begin my blogging again, I see how unready I was five and more years ago.
I was afraid.

I had people reading me and I was still afraid.  I stopped writing and they stopped reading.  Not such a big surprise.  If that was my worst fear, it's happened and now I'm starting up again and I haven't even told anybody.

I'm writing into the vacuum that is cyberspace.

A solar flare could wipe out everything with an electromagnetic pulse and we'd all be back at square one.

I did that without a solar flare just by observing how my relationships hadn't been working and taking time to take stock and heal...in the meantime, injuring myself even more and also watching the world fall apart around me.  Then, out of the absolute ashes my new life grew.

Starting with virtually nothing here in Toronto, I am at least in a hub that has connections around the world.  These days that's true no matter where you are, but there is something to be said for a place that actually has more than a million people in it and functions well through intense winter and summer weather.

The other fear is that the void is filled with drivel.  Who knows what actually becomes of pixels?  Do they coalesce and eventually form a ...no, it's nonsense.  By the time electrons formed into patterns that could resonate across any amount of space and generate a response of note...let's just say that's a lot more time than anything has a right to expect anything to happen.

My drivel is special.  So say I.  I will at least make an effort to prove that to be true.  No readers?  No problem.  If you build it, etc. etc. All in good time as my father would say.  He's not saying much these days.  Gallows humour.  I'm clearly in a dark place.  It's a gorgeous day out there and I'm turning 56 tomorrow.  What about it?  I'm actually more psyched than I've been in quite a few years.

But not enough to post on the date I wrote the bulk of the above.  A bit of editing and another chapter in the crazy book of life.

Beyond filling the void there is taking advantage of opportunities.  First, there is recognizing opportunities for what they are.  Then, there is preparing as fully as possible for them.

Next time!  That's all I can say.  Nothing to be done about the past.  Moving right along.